Last night I was having coffee with a friend who pretty much needs my services. I mean he appreciates I listen to his ever-lasting moaning about life and listens to me when I shower positivity and messages of self-love upon him - although, due to many issues very strong within him, he hasn't done much to change. But he will, slowly but surely.

I was talking about something I wanna do, and am feeling pretty confident at it - can't remember what - then I did a gesture with my fists clenched, in a silly kung fu style kind of thing. He laughed. I asked him to do the same and he was "Nah that's silly", I insisted and he was like hesitating, but something really stopped him and he said "Nah that's silly". I was amazed. It was just a physical display of resistance of letting go things, of be willing to change his "being afraid" pattern and get some self-confidence.

We were talking about self-confidence before. I was saying to him - as he's my friend, a very dear one - he's such a nice guy, pleasant person to be with, funny, sweet, he's good at his work, a hard worker who cares about the business, staying late to finish off things etc... Then he was looking down, mumbling "I know" but... Unless he doesn't realise that himself, he will be always unsatisfied and unhappy, thinking of himself as rubbish, as an unworthy person. While he can't display his "fists of fury", he can't go any further...

First Things First

Last week I was having dinner with friends, and we were having these off-tellings friends do like "you should do this and that". Then I said, "Guess what, I have another victim". I was refering to a guy from work who I was brainwashing for him to go and find a better job and sort things out with his life (things he used to complain about). Like a councellor, but pretty much acting by my own will than by other people's request.

Then I suddenly thought, that's my mission in life: listen to people's problems (friend's) and point them what they could do to fix the problems, or motivate them with their own life, positive thinking, this kind of thing. If they do or don't what I say, well that's another story, but at least I try to give advice from an impartial point of view, which sometimes is the best advice you can get.

It's not that I'm any hot shot, because I'm not - trying to sort other people's lives while mine's a mess is more like it. I'm nothing but still I try to not let people fall. The Catcher In The Rye.